Original Poem: Love Letter to You (Written Valentine's Day 2011)

I told myself this wouldn't happen

I swore it wasn’t true

But it's been a year and I think it's time

That I come clean with you

I told my friends it was impossible

That it was all just a game

But now I get millions of goose bumps

When someone barely mentions your name

So now it's time to break my silence

Now it's time to finally say

Everything I should have already told you

On this miserable Valentines Day

Well, First I want to say sorry

That it took me all this time

To tell you what you mean to me;

To say what's on my mind

And second, I figured I'd tell you

I'm shaking even as I write

Because I don't usually do this

And I want to do this right.

I love the way you say my name

I love the way it sounds

I love the way it forms in your mouth

The way your tongue makes love to its vowels

I love how your mind works

I love to watch you think

The way your long eyelashes flutter down

When all you do is blink

I love the way it feels

Just to lay in your embrace

I love the way the world falls away

When I look at your beautiful face

I love the fact that you're fearless

That you inspire me to be me

That you make me strive to be my best

And you taught me how to be more free

But as I'm writing this poem

The clear blue skies of my mind go grey

Because regardless of all the things that I love,

I hate that you're so far away

"I guess I'll see you next lifetime" Erykah said

And that really couldn't be more true

Timing really is, well, everything

And this is why I'm saying this to you

So if I could go back

Undo the things I said

Unlike the way it felt

When we were intertwined in bed

Un-smile at all your faces

Un-laugh at all your jokes

Un-cry all the tears I spilled

When I realized all the sentiments that you invoke

I love you

and it hurts like hell

It's unbearable

There aren't enough words to tell

I probably should've said this a while ago

Or I probably should've stayed away

As deep in love with you as I am now

And the way it grows stronger every day

That would've been safer

That would've been smart

But my efforts are futile

Because you've already inside of my heart

Yes, I love you

This much I know is true

So I had to put it down on paper

In this long love letter to you.